We don't plan on making it out alive.

Fuck.

Please, just be.

Happiness is a figment of your imagination.
Run with it.

She's a looker.

Take me back to a place where no harm was done, except to our livers and lungs. A time when all that mattered was sunshine and eskimo kisses. We spent our money on fun and cancer. Every beautiful day turned into a amazing night. These nights I for one, will never forget. Nights we spent watching movies after being so drunk we could hardly stand. We kept each other in line, we kept each other happy. No one could have seen it coming...
Not for a second. There was no logical reason for anything that happened. Friendships were formed and broken. But for some time, some place, we were all happy.

blah.

I dont know why this happens.
I am pretty sure its KARMA!!! There is really no other reason for it. Nothing logical anyways. Shit, i must have really fucked up in my past.
Things are better than they have been in a while with my home life.
My parents get along with eachother, as well as with me.
But out side of that, things have gone to shit.
blah.

I will be shut down.

I am going to regret this.

I am fucked up in more ways than one.
I do not know what i am going to do with my life.
I hate school so much it is scary. Though, I would never drop out.
I feel like I am not really complete. Like there is something missing.
I have done this to myself. There are no excuses for what i have put myself through.
I simply care too much, I am too hopeful in times when there is no hope to be seen.
I have put up with shit that any other girl would never put up with.
I have loved.
I have been fucked over so many times, i have lost count.
I do not deserve this.
I am happy now. Though, i wish things would be a little different right now.

damn

I am behind in my school work.
This is not good.

I need to do something.
Quick.